about what happened yesterday and today

"the Lord is close to the brokenhearted

and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

psalm 34:18

i sat in church on sunday and listened to the message at pulse.

it was, as usual,

well presented and totally made sense . . .

it was great, albeit a sad topic,

but seemed completely inapplicable to my life at noon yesterday.

i planned to pack my notes away until a time when i needed them.

whenever that might be.

that time came today.

~~~

"therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven,

Jesus the Son of God,

let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.

for we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way,

just as we are—yet he did not sin.

let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence,

so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us

in our time of need."

hebrews 4:14-16

~~~

i feel guilty and stupid for admitting this,

sometimes my heart forgets that God has His hand on my life.

my head knows it theoretically . . .

and it's not like i mean to forget . . .

but i think that i often go about my day-to-day activities

without active awareness in my heart that God knows me and my needs every

year/month/week/day/hour/minute/second,

past/present/future.

yesterday's message was a preparation for my today.

it armed me with thoughts and Scriptures to cling to

in my time of need . . .

i am reminded that

He knows what i need before i do.

He knows what i need better that i do.

i'm thankful for my God who knows me personally . . .

my God is there to provide refuge and comfort to me,

even when i don't even know i need it.

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